Now I have to study the beat poets
Their tragedy and their disapprobation
Their bad beards and their worse breath
I would smell like that
if I smoked cigarettes like they did
<><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> 03/30/20
Author: Gerry
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Beat poets
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The only
The only thing I can change is myself
There is only one thing
The eyes let in the light
The light lets in the being
Union is the moment
Now is the time
The temple is released back into universal soul
Fears bind us
One moment we all will die
Our death riding on our shoulder has already arrived
Going from darkness to light
We come to go
This is just another step
To a wider perspective
Living is the journey through to being
What you are fundamentally
Does not belong to time
Once we master death there is no longer fear
Going forward and letting go
Trusting what you have done all your life
We are born to learn how to die
We only carry consciousness across the river
All we are leaving behind is a body
All those things we cannot see
Are all the things we cannot measure
Are all the things that matter
Being quiet in one way or another
Is part of each of us
There is not a better something
There is union
Unity became separateness
In order to create individuality
In order to return to unity
Thought and kindness are the path
Serving others, you can find yourself
Take part in the world
To hold happiness
Move to union in letting go of happiness
And the breath returns the ultimate joy
Nothing can bring you happiness
Because you have it already
Your experiences are all you have
Without a past and without the future
All the present moments are the experiences
Which are the reality
In you
You have to live in the world
And know you are not of the world
The whole world is inside of us
The still small spiritInspired by On Yoga: The Architecture of Peace
A film by Michael O’Neill (Netflix)<><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> 03/17/20
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The advocates’ answer to homelessness => 2020 Homeless poem
Each year for several years I have captured what I could of the experiences of people who have no home to call their own.
<><><><><> 2020
PersistPersistPersistThe problems are ours to solveThe problems we have are the problems we shareThe people we know are the people who careThe people sitting at the big tablesThe people at the side of the ditchThe people who cryAnd people who sigh in despairPersistPersistPersistHold on to hopeOr tie your hope to your bicycleBut persistDemandInvestigatePersistFor years you have triedFor years you have criedSome years you feel like you have diedPersistDemandInstigateExplainSupportMove forwardFall backMove upFall downGet yourself up off the groundSpit out the dirtAnd persistIt takes the squeaky, the kind, the actionTo reveal the humanity of it allIt takes officials with their purse strings and their blah blahIt takes the neighborhoods with their concernsIt takes compassionate people with moneyIt takes youIt takes meTo solve the homeless messTo wrestle with the forces of greed and economyThe unseen hand has its fist pounding on the backs of humansThe forces of the nightAnd the chilly morning lightReveal the sufferingOf those without a home of their ownFind a pillowBuild a doorFind in your hearts the answersSo this disgrace can be no moreListen to the people who know the terrors of the streetsExamine the data there is in storeFind the funds for freedom’s answerDon’t study war no morePersistPersistPersist<><><><><>
Poem 2017 – there was no update
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here and now
when you formed in your mother’s loins
no one wanted this result for you
the vagaries of life
in tragedies of death
came to this place
that you are in
here and nowyou gave
and you received
the naïve joy of youth
a fleeting fantasy
of sustenance
longing to recover it
here and nowthe lives you bore
in your own womanhood
blew away
in a moment
the tempest of tragedy
lost in your lifetime
here and nowthen and there
the crush of sadness
tore away
all defenses
and left
just you
here and nowjust swallowing pride and hope
community of sharing
had been expected
then you descended
into darkness
impenetrable
here and nowyears and decades
passed over like smoke
of sorrow
no relief in mist
of mind bending toxins
no relief for the unbearable
here and now -
Ripples through time
The goodness of each one ripples down through time.
These people who have shared our life
The kindness of a word or a touch when it was needed
Flows onward
The space in time we each share
Is here like a wave
Leaving a ripple in our hearts.
And lessons recognized in their passing
Spread as rings on water, seen, then remembered
The goodness of each one ripples down through time.
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(The boy in the red shirt is the great grandson of someone whose name is on the stone)
Press Democrat article is 10/07/19
Other fire poems
10/28/17 Among the flame then ash
12/13/17 Measure of Time
10/24/18 Haiku from fire days
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That’s the world we live in
[Is “optimistic poet” an oxymoron? This poem can be read column by column or all the way through. Each way to read may yield perspective.]
Screaming at the rain with jail plastic bags in hand
Just released back to the streets without a plan
Soaked to the bone
With no ride home
That’s the world we live inSigning in the rain when life’s not so bad
Sometimes the simple is enough to be had
Anyone who actually looks at me can’t help but care
As long as there’s some help somewhere
Is that the world we live inHours of testimony on spending windfall money
The advocates are there,
although they can hardly hear
The back and the forth of the blah blah
That’s the world we live inFriendships are formed as we conspire
Plans to make our best get higher
Struggles for money don’t tear us apart
Just life as we know it but we do our part
Is that the world we live inFriends outside in the rain
Late winter brought misery again
Homeless infuriated at no action
Despite all the signs of the needs in our times
That’s the world we live inProposals prepared and numbers add up
Bizarre way to come unstuck
But openness and grace ensue
If with our hearts these things we do
Is that the world we live inLeaders discussing options
With insufficient evidence and little review
Explanations are made whether softly said or intense
Can’t hear, so can’t tell if they made any sense
That’s the world we live inWisdom spoken loud and clear
from the ones that have no fear
Knowing tiny homes or tents
Blessed in community they are sent
Is that the world we live inThose without homes don’t need to read tomes
They don’t have time to discuss Federal mandates and such
It’s cold and wet out there
Does anyone care
That’s the world we live inWhile struggles continue all night and all day
Some may listen to the things we say
Some have a heart and a home and a door
If you let me in I won’t need more
Is that the world we live inThose with housing confront doing it right
But some people sleep outside at night
While “I” s getting dotted, and “T”s get crossed
What to do for those still lost
That’s the world we live inHolding forth and shouting out
It’s time to tell the world about
What people want and what people need
Some of us will practice our creed
Is that the world we live inIt’s about money and perception
Yet many have the misconception
That people outside aren’t fit to come in
Because they smell like sin
That’s the world we live inSo many folks really do care
Hours of help and service they share
Compassionate hearts want to be part
Of meeting the need to make a new start
Is that the world we live in?<><><><><><><><><> 190322
An Earlier homeless poem
I’m alive
I’m walking down the sidewalk singing in the rain
I’m not sheltered under a bridge
As the water rises.
I’m soaking wet
But I do art.
I have no money
But my boyfriend loves me
In the forests of the night
I shiver
The next day I look for a job
I look forward.
The kindness of strangers sustains me
There is hope because there is caring
Anyone who actually looks at me
Can’t help but careEven if they deny me.
<><><><><><><> 141211
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Here is a poem which took 38 years to write, and it is not finished.

Wisdom, strength, humility, joy.
If wisdom be your goal, then knowing you know nothing had better be good enough.
Strength flows on, as time frame is spanned, then forms in space expanded.
If you pray for humility, you better be prepared to accept it.
Joy comes to those prepared to accept, and to those who know what they know, manifest as soul expanded.
Wisdom, strength, humility, joy; all for the glory and honor of the Creator and creation.
<><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> 05/07/16 -
moon and sun – a new day begun
The sunset and the moon had a conversation
Why won’t you be with me all night long
the reflections of my glory shine all night through you
All night long, I am still missing you thoughThe moon shines down in fits and starts
Sometimes as a sliver sometimes just in parts
The moon bursts out and lights the land
in summer nights the day expands
Lovers walk under her light
And making the use of all that’s brightThe sun goes then comes again
It wakes them as another day is planned
The sunset and the moon
In each other’s space will swoon
Giving back when what they need
is just what the other seesThe sunset and the moonlight crossed
Held together, in each other, never lost
Balanced by what they finally found
Each spreads light on the forests’ ground
The sun now ponders, the moon arises
Holding hope that darkness prizes
joy of dreams gives soft renewal
To lift creation like mystic jewels
illumination
flirtation
conflagration
Joy of light in night or day
Until there’s nothing left to sayThe moon at dawn assured again
The alignment as it had begun
The sun would shine
And give light reflected
All in between again protected
As light gives glory and hope renewed
Such are held in morning’s dew.<><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> 07/18/18
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Haiku from fire days
In the hour before
The mind comes into focus
Dawn breaches slowlyPink clouds of dawn, soft
Gently melding wisps of thought
Power bringing changeLove is like the smoke coming
fire we don’t control
The smoke is like loveThey spread everywhere
in space we didn’t know was there
A conflagrationFire like a giant
Crow waiting to swoop in and
Blow away our dreamsLike a white egret
Love flies across misty fog
In all its beautyMay grace and mercy
Like mists find us all our lives
Heaven here on earthWill anything find us
Ever ease the weary soul
Grace and mercy mayGhostly white egret
Made late twilight passage
A brief glimpse then goneLove or smoke floating
Through our lives encumbered by
Nothing we can seeFelt reality
More than any substance can
Worth every momentSmoke of our sadness
Loss we have yet to measure
Drifts across the heartsFire lingers in the
Ashes of our dreamscape held
In vague memoryLove like smoke held close
No form or substance revealed
Is nonetheless realLove better than smoke
Because ambiguity
Lifts us up in timeLove and smoke entwined
Neither has a boundary
But both impact usThe moon is waning
Orion striding along
Moving to sunriseBlow across the sky
Ever hoping happily
Love is on the waySmoky clouds descend
Blocking moon or shiny stars
Wisps in time revealedLove or smoke rising
Ever hoping happily
Love is on the waySmoke near dawn revealed
In random burning tells all
That souls need to knowHolding love like smoke
Illusion of our power
Nothing held is lostNothing held is lost
Turn to learn the simple truth
Nothing held is gainedNow hearts hold softly
Now our hearts abide today
smoke or love or graceGrace abides through time
ever blowing on its way
wisps of mysteryblowing through our life
Precious love believing
Smoke or love will stayStay to reach for smoke
Hold to love ambiguous
Hearts forever youngDespite the line of time
Memory intertwined will
Be held togetherSmoke and ashes fade
While love becomes egret’s flight
Ever glides alongHazy smoke of love
Bringing tears of passion forth
Better life revealedBecoming simple
Hanging wisps of thought fulfilled
Into grace revealedGrace moving throughout
A life of giving into
Forces unforeseenIn lives revealed somehow
Ancient intuition here
Love or smoke brought forthLost to love til now
Like some smoky memories
Emerge as a mistOf strength in passion
Helped discover long lost
Innocence of hope
<><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> 02/23/18 -
Out of fire come Seer’s dreams
Rest quietly
let the Spirit guides guide
rest quietly
among the flame
then ash
rest quietly
let the Spirit guides guide
the spirits of trees
moved on in ash
just as you
and I
will one day be moved on
as ash<><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> 10/13/17
Waiting for David Bowie or an angel to walk in
Sitting in a chair I would welcome their grin
A warm greeting can be expected
In our community where we are protected
Love is stronger than some
And all the bureaucrats with whom I spoke
Were kind and informative
Sharing anything they had to give
Emergency services are morphing
As the options for recovery we are sorting
Don’t worry be happy playing in the air
Not quite yet but we’ll get there
My community
<><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> 10/18/17 at brewBowie comes on singing “under pressure”
The flames of nature assaulted us like a thresher
Yet responders and neighbors responded with effort
And kindness despite transformation brought on by the zephyr
Homes in ruins as all our stuff is gone
Transforming life as we knew it to a new dawn
Mindful of what has been given and what is won
Take the circumstance so we can act onGlory of friends,
Glory of place,
Glory to the Creator who gave us space
To live this life as life allows
In this our souls will rouse
To become what we might be
To act on what we now see
As fate and circumstances
In this our life’s brand new dance
<><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> 10/18/17 at brewTo search the depths of resiliency
The fog in the Redwoods portends that with which we must contend
Everything is a test and a lesson to search the depths of resiliency.
Or expand the heart.
<><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> 12/14/17Winter whirls
Outside the window
Inside worries and wonders
Continue
As they do
Wishing for joy
Settling for contentment
Have to take
What is there for the taking
Blessings
Mixed
As they often areFirestorm
Still blows
Cold and harsh now
Like nothing
Ever felt before
Harsh like ashes
Stuck to a shoeScattering ashes to the wind
As memories cling
Like leaves
To trees.
<><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> 12/26/17Love is like smoke
Smoke is like love
They come from a fire we don’t control
They spread everywhere in the space there isFire sits like a giant Crow waiting
To swoop in and blow away our dreams
Love flies across the view scape
In the fog like a white egret
There in all its beauty
<><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> 01/29/18A truck weighed down
like a soul
a journey
filled with stones of memory
somewhere in California
a monarch flutters
like a soul
the journey against hot winds
a journey to be completed nonetheless
despite the possibility of death
especially because of the possibility of death
life’s journey is like that
moving forward
ever forward
despite the inevitability of death
smoke filled skies
give way to memories
dusty ashes of our lives
sifted in mesh nets
yielding the unburnable
Memories
like pebbles through the mesh of our minds
this is what is left
except for the love thicker than smoke
wafting in the air
ghosts of the buildings
we once called home
blow out to sea
or settle in the vineyard soil
to grow to be a smoky ghostly vintage
such is our Redwood lives
where love is thicker than smoke
<><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> 04/26/18
Another ThursdayFrom the depths of Sorrow
or the heights of joy
all the world can do
is ask, “Do you want more?”
On the day we are born
until the day we die
all the world can show is,
“This is it”
In our deepest thoughts
and our shouted words
all the world’s lessons are expressed
From the dawn’s early light
to the sunset glow
the world is always spinning
<><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> 08/23/18Another Friday night
Five days of Orion running
through smoke passing
through places of which we spoke
Paradise and Hidden Valley
Gone away now
Under Fire and Ash
gone away
gone
gone in the ashes
rise up in the air
to arrive upon another life
<><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> 11/09/18




