Category: Poems

  • Measure of time

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    I used my father’s tape measure
    to measure the distance to the point of departure
    Counting the inches and the feet
    to the place where we found defeat
    I saw the ashes
    I saw the sun on the burnt-out chimney

    49 and a half feet from the curb and 13 feet on the property line
    I saw the inches, the feet,
    The space in between then and now

    The bricks, like memories, all in this place
    This is where family gathered for warmth and comfort
    A firestorm turned all of that into something else

    The fireplace mantel had some mementos;
    so I did something stupid to get up and get them
    The fireplace bricks said, “You have to learn another lesson.”
    And I fell down to sprain my ankle
    I fell down to instantly recognize my vulnerability, once again

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  • Among the flame then ash

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    On Sunday night before midnight
    a fire started near Franz’s Valley Road,
    or many fires started,
    between Franz Valley Road and Highway 101,
    either way, thousands of acres burned
    in just eight hours fire moved 8 short miles

    The fire rushed down past Riebli Road like a river
    up the top of the hill
    over St. Andrews, the golf course road,
    and down to Thomas Lake Harris where utopia once lie

    Over through the Fountaingrove
    and down into the hidden valley
    the flames traveled
    past Leete and Aaron and Flintwood and Brookdale
    down to the Sleepy Hollow

    At the edge of the Sleepy Hollow the flame stopped
    yet continued west
    over the top
    down to the Fountaingrove barn,
    to the lodgings and to the history
    of the County of Sonoma
    the Fountaingrove was the piece of our heritage
    that we left for 118 years
    and therefore it was a piece of our heritage

    Across the road to the Journey’s End
    and with finality dark and red and smoking
    the Journey’s End where lives moved on
    right to the edge of the hospital
    where people were to be healed

    the flames rose up and rushed over to Coffey Park
    Reverend Coffee, not the namesake but a homonym,
    his Spirit was not in those homes
    Reverend Coffee, his Spirit was in the people
    that he guided for so long in that neighborhood
    who responded as they did
    Coffey Park went up in flames
    until the edge of the rails

    The flames on another trajectory
    swooped on down past the Adobe Canyon
    past the water supply
    flame swooped on down to Kenwood
    and Kenwood is gone
    up through the Lawndale and the walnut orchards
    onto the Annadel
    the dell so dear to so many
    Flames reborn as flames will do
    through the trees

    Spirits soar through the trees
    that take souls to the other side
    through the trees that burned to ash
    and as ash
    in breathe of God moved on

    Down the ranches of Bennett Ridge
    burned through the trees
    more homes destroyed
    more ashes blown as lives and dreams will be

    Flames considered Wolf house
    however the flames did not return again for more
    And the madrone wood burned away
    On Arnold should drive another day
    before the gate could open to the private roads
    the flames to jump
    Tales are told

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    Ancient wood and young vines
    Spirit holders of the souls
    and as they are all on their own,
    in ashes on the wind are blown

    The time to hold our memories
    carried just as ashes,
    ashes and the spirit fly
    upon the breathe of God.

    Hold your passion
    hold to love
    hold the kindness
    not ashes blown away
    souls of trees
    flying in the breeze
    then root’s forgotten lay.

    Rest quietly
    let the Spirit guides guide
    rest quietly
    among the flame
    then ash
    rest quietly
    let the Spirit guides guide
    the spirits of trees
    moved on in ash
    just as you
    and I
    will one day
    be moved on
    as ash

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  • Holding goodness in our hearts

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    From the depths of sadness
    Memory brings forth
    Moments of tenderness
    In dreams
    Realization
    In the moment
    That it is a dream
    Thus comfort becomes
    The knowledge that past tenderness
    Resides in the heart
    And wanders around the inner mind’s realm
    Memories of comfort
    Near the depths of the soul
    Touching
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    Anne with glasses
    With goodness in our hearts
    and sadness in our eyes
    we said goodbye

    We had felt the depths
    and seen too much
    when we said goodbye

    Strength can hold the heart aloft
    though tears in trials flow
    as we said goodbye

    Time is healer of the heart
    Mind’s eye throws us back
    to when we said goodbye

    Many hearts through fits and starts
    Have seen some better things
    as we said goodbye

    Time does not erase our feelings
    and silent tears return sometimes
    to when we said goodbye

    Holding goodness in our hearts
    as we gaze beyond
    when we said goodbye

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  • National Hold Onto Your Gruntle Day


    After long such time
    I have come to be
    grizzled not disgruntled
    because for the longest time I joked
    that I still had my gruntle
    bureaucracy and absurdity
    could not dislodge
    the strong strings that held my gruntle in place

    winds have whipped the winnowed wisps
    between the humor of my heart
    held fast through hours contemplating
    the unexplained endless circulating
    mysteries of madness
    brought about by life’s
    boundless hope or sadness

    to move ahead is the only choice,
    moving back has gone beyond
    and showed the place
    of unexplainable grace
    as breath and chuckles meld

    all the people’s perspectives perspired
    to cool frustrations ire
    stumbling into choices
    of reward or desire
    that led to places
    and left the traces
    of incomprehensible and the unthinkable
    until arriving here

    neither faith nor fear has brought this near
    just the force of people’s choices
    hearing their voices
    and wondering all the days
    maybe I could change my ways

    gruntle served to smooth the rough
    as I accepted fate,
    it could be my fault
    or some other trait
    that brought me
    well enough along to have to say
    on this day
    gruntle has its place

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  • owl on a branch

    One owl on a branch; watching, hooting
    One owl contentment was eluding
    Long shadows of dawn burn off the morning mist
    Sunshine on dewdrops, tiny water kissed
    Daylight rises up as hope into the sky
    Gliding o’er the treetops as another day goes by
    Landing on a lofty perch the great bird waits anew
    Spending time among the pines a vigil to renew
    Another night spent searching as daylight’s rays are fading
    The one owl on a branch, watching, hooting, waiting
    Scanning up and down the sky as solitary birds will do
    Through the trees upon the breeze no other owl flew
    Though blessed with sight throughout the night
    Traverse the land and scanned in flight
    Not birds or creatures easily caught
    Held hope for what the owl sought
    So back upon familiar branch returned
    And listeners near and far discerned
    Solitary owl sings forlorn
    Not wishing for a lonely morn
    Just a seeker of another creature with a song just like its own
    In circumstance, desire, attitude, and tone
    One owl on a branch
    One owl takes a chance
    To wait in the light that’s fading
    Amid branches softly shading

    Two owls hooting
    There is no disputing
    How the tale turned out, they went flying all about
    Perching, preening, singing, as if to cry out
    Praise the dawn and praise the dusk
    As we found there’s two of us

  • In the evening effort flows all of my days

    Petaluma scenes

    In the evening the sky turns Gray
    if I was sad
    I would be depressed
    my gray matter would matter

    Gray skies mean nothing
    until they are given meaning,
    or do they?
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    Effort and money flow

    You need gold to buy the redwood.
    Silver comes in handy to purchase the water.
    Coal powers the ambitions of roads
    Until liquid fuels drive the movements
    Of goods and services
    Things as sad as people
    Money and effort
    Flowing through time
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    Imagine if imagined mattered.
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    For the days to come and go the planet has to turn
    The light has to shine at the top of the trees
    and the girls have to call to one another
    We do not need to be here to see all of this, or cause it to happen
    yet we are in the world and it has meaning
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    I don’t know anyone
    who is luckier than me
    poor suffering leads to
    Humble joy
    joy found in life

    Lonesome Cowboy Bill
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    All of my days
    All of my nights
    all of my breath
    all of my fights
    the world keeps spinning
    around and around
    breathing and fighting
    near the cold hard ground
    Heaven above and heaven below
    getting by each day
    On what little we know
    Holding to blessings
    not frustrations’ curse
    based on impressions
    for good or for worse
    wander through days
    and dreaming through nights
    a touch or a breathe
    will suffice in the fights
    for justice and freedom
    for compassion and help
    hoping for wisdom
    holding cards we are dealt
    as long as we grow
    as long as we try
    fulfilling a destiny
    whether we really know why
    down through the days
    and glorious nights
    of dreaming and breathing
    prepared to still fight
    for justice and freedom
    Compassion and joy
    Like an ancient te deum
    our desires deploy
    its worth all the days
    and all of the nights
    its worth spending our breath
    on all of these fights
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  • I missed an important poem in the update

    Standing watching the dawn of a new year
    holding out the hope something can calm my fear
    Walking stumbling into the misty morning
    Bringing memories forward watching for a warning
    Looking seeing dark clouds forming
    Do they bring rain or just foreboding
    Early dawn bringing a year and a day
    Trepidation cast in this new foray

  • for my sons

    Easter at the Tram 2003

    Here are some things I have learned over the years

    People who receive a kindness are often not gracious
    People who are extremely smart are often difficult to get along with
    People who are well-educated are not necessarily the best at what they do
    People who complain of a situation are often at the center of the situation both causing it and enduring it.
    People who are kind are willingly fooled
    People who are mean resent being fooled
    People who are fools can’t tell the difference
    People want the best for their kids
    People who endure grave illness are not weak even when their body is
    People who live a life of pain and great sorrow are open to recognizing great joy
    Great joy is seldom found while it be is being overlooked
    Great joy is behind our eyes
    Great joy is within our view
    Great joy is here and now
    Great joy is not coming
    Great joy is here
    The probability that your heart will be broken is very high
    Let your heart out anyway
    The probability that you will be disappointed by some parts of your life is certain
    Live your life anyway
    Any way you want

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  • Grief

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    Grief lingers deep in the heart
    and massages the weary soul
    to have its way in most unexpected moments

    Grief comes to the mind whenever
    it chooses to again step forth
    because it has something to say to stir the depths

    Grieving has its own current
    It ebbs or it flows then waxes
    even in a stream of joy and contentment

    As the heart has its reasons
    which reasoning knows nothing of
    Grief washes over or undercuts the spirit

    Grief is a life companion
    once it has made an acquaintance
    but seldom with fond forgiven memories

    Only the cause of the grief
    Loving and laughter lost imbues
    the precious in heart and mind and soul forever

  • Flowers reach for sky blue joy

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    After all the rain
    Flowers reach for sky blue joy
    Desert bloom my love

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